K.Stock

Adventure seeking Boy

Why is it that my life is so dramatic and all over the place? I understand the source of the problem originates from my parents and living at home. They are the reason why i am so overstressed and hate my life. I come home from working my 35 hours of work and college on the side and treat me like i am nothing. Well thats what ill give them. Nothing. I am moving out without letting them knowing- i am dropping out of school so i can work more and save up enough to move out.

I have a few places in mind.

I. New York

II. Toronto

III. Europe(but it can be quite impossible to move there and its pricey)

Pretty much i want to go more east haha. I just want to experience a new culture and learn more about myself. I believe that no one person should live in one area his/her entire life. There is so much beauty in this world that we need to be nomads in a sense and see the world we live in :).

My parents dont mean anything to me anymore. They are holding me back from my dreams and i will not stand for this. Once i leave theres no turning back. Ill have all my funds safe and everything will be indepenent from them. They will have no idea where i am and im quite exicited for this. I cant believe my life has led to this-One Word: Awesome.

Lost

I just want to forget the past and move on.

Somewhere far away, somewhere where ill never remember this past life.

Im Lost.

?

Am I lucky?

So this morning as i was driving on the freeway, i slowed down due to the car in front of me braking, but he swerved very fast to the other lane leaving me 15 or less feet from hitting the car in front of me. I slam on my brakes and luckily save myself from an accident;two cars behind me had to swerve into other lanes.

When i was just getting home a little while ago from school. I exited the freeway and was going to turn left at the signal. Halfway out on my turn and a car runs a red light…5 seconds after its green for me…if i didnt look i would have been hit on my side and probably killed due to her going 50+ mph. So i am grateful that i am alive right now :)

Today i got a C+ on a quiz in western civ. Not too proud of this, but i got the majority correct so im quite upset. But you know what? I dont care cause im glad luck helped me survive rather than get an A and die a horrible death. hahahaha, but yep thats my story of the day :)

Coffee+Bacon

This is what i consumed this morning as i woke up from 4 hours of sleep. Last night i studied my heart out reading until 2 AM in my Western Civ book. Hopefully i get a good grade, no..i will get a good grade on the test today. If i do not, i will be quite sad to say the least because i have wasted 2 weeks of my life going to school for nothing. I should be getting ready for school, yes. But i will be using tumblr once again :) I have finally been able to organize how to live my life with my jobs and school. I put in my 2 weeks actually to Red Roin last friday so i will be getting more hours at Panera. How exciting! Its great to know hard work pays off in the end. I am also going to the gym at least 5 days a week-makes me more energetic and my mind is always thinking-good for school. Now i just need to stop procrastinating and finish my homework early. That would make my life so much easier im sure of it.

Good morning Tumblr + Folk. See you later, im sure.

Your Friend,

Kevin Richard Stock

I have missed you so

Tumblr. How long has it been? I forgot how nice it is to write down my thoughts after a hard day at work.  Since July ive changed quite a bit. Learned a lot about myself actually. I believe this is my contemplative year. My 18 year old year was about just learning-living-enjoying-trying new things, good and bad. I hope to accomplish much this year. Although i work 2 jobs nowadays and have no time for a lot-friends and myself; I still at motivated to pursue my goals this next summer.

School starts in less than 2 weeks! August 17th is the first day of school to be exact. Im glad im going back :) I missed it a lot actually. Time to make some new friends as well. I love meeting new people..hopefully there are nice people in my classes. Well im off to do some other things-Dance-Wash  up-Get ready for bed. Working both jobs tomorrow again :. But its all good :) Night

Major :D

I have been searching for my major for quite some time now. But its funny how i thought about this my senior year of high school and forgot about it :. I want to look into  broadcast journalism as a major(Cinema/Radio/Film). Anything in that field interests me really. Very competitive im sure, but im up for the challenge. Yay.

Work

Mornings are horrible now. Working 2 jobs, getting up at 6 am or earlier in summer; Well its not my cup of tea. Im making mulah though, thats a plus :) Im considering moving to Long Beach instead of Santa Monica next summer. If not that….anywhere in the US really :) I just need to be next to a major city and the beach. Maybe San Fran. Could just work.

Unexplainable Feelings

On Friday July 3rd, a big change occured in my life. I was to pick up Angel (baseball) tickets from an old family friend. I ended up staying and talking to Cindy(the mom) and Ashley(one of their 3 daughters). Cindy is the one person who will break my mom and help her accept me as being gay. They have been friends for many years and they trust eachother very much. Slowly my mom is understanding what Cindy is saying to her. Cindy told me to just let my mom say things that are mean, and in return respond with ‘Ok mom, ill try harder next time, or yes mom, etc’. All of you will probably say “Duh”. Although you may think it would be easy to just be nice to my mother, well, we had a very long and bad history. But im ready to forgive my mom. Ive been the nicest son this past week and I think she is seeing this.

I cant expalin how i feel. Seems like my life is finally getting better :). Better relationships with my parents, able to use the car more often, interview for a 2nd job tomorrow…what else can i ask for? I mean ya, maybe some new clothes since i havent had a shopping spree since high school haha. Good thing i still fit in those clothes(hehe). I can finally look in the mirror and tell myself, I love you for being who you are. As tears fill my eyes at this moment, its not because im sad, its because im so happy of the person i am becoming. Im excited beyond belief at what my life will bring;Good or Bad, i know it will make me a better person and I hope to bring joy and happiness to other people’s lives as well.

I cant wait :O)

Round

Finally life is turning out like i hoped it would. Im so excited to see where it goes!

Tumblarity

Can suck my balls.

30 somethin to 19? really? :( haha

Ima

Dance in my kitchen.