Unexplainable Feelings
On Friday July 3rd, a big change occured in my life. I was to pick up Angel (baseball) tickets from an old family friend. I ended up staying and talking to Cindy(the mom) and Ashley(one of their 3 daughters). Cindy is the one person who will break my mom and help her accept me as being gay. They have been friends for many years and they trust eachother very much. Slowly my mom is understanding what Cindy is saying to her. Cindy told me to just let my mom say things that are mean, and in return respond with ‘Ok mom, ill try harder next time, or yes mom, etc’. All of you will probably say “Duh”. Although you may think it would be easy to just be nice to my mother, well, we had a very long and bad history. But im ready to forgive my mom. Ive been the nicest son this past week and I think she is seeing this.
I cant expalin how i feel. Seems like my life is finally getting better :). Better relationships with my parents, able to use the car more often, interview for a 2nd job tomorrow…what else can i ask for? I mean ya, maybe some new clothes since i havent had a shopping spree since high school haha. Good thing i still fit in those clothes(hehe). I can finally look in the mirror and tell myself, I love you for being who you are. As tears fill my eyes at this moment, its not because im sad, its because im so happy of the person i am becoming. Im excited beyond belief at what my life will bring;Good or Bad, i know it will make me a better person and I hope to bring joy and happiness to other people’s lives as well.
I cant wait :O)
