Confused Much?
Life sends us on an endless journey and doesnt give us a sense of direction. Some days you’ll wake up to a bright, happy go lucky day while others gloomy and depressing. When do you know you’re on the right yellow brick road? I face my enemies daily and it seems they are infinite and will never deplete. On the other hand, I have this sense of accomplishment,fuck you world type of personality. Its funny;One day ill be scared shitless while the next day I will feel on top of the world. Is this just life?
San Francisco is such a lovely place full of adventure,diverse cultures and open minded citizens. Somehow this makes you feel claustrophobic and lonely. I know, its a “big city” per say, but how do i get over this phase? Time? Most say just give it a year and you will understand. I understand this a little, for its been over 5 months and i feel a little better than when i first arrived here on January 26th,2010. Since then I have worked two jobs/65 + hours a week, to working at Cheesecake Factory presently with 40 hours/week. Im doing ok i believe….heh, i need some more confidence. Modeling was somewhat of a fling, but i do like it and i will get back into it once i get grounded again. School will be starting in August for the fall semester-will take 2 classes or so.
I conclude with this: Life’s a bitch, so suck it up cupcake!
Kevin, out.
